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Lately, I've heard more and more discussion of "the pandemic skip" phenomenon. People are coming to realise that the years of normalcy "lost" to the pandemic puts them in a different stage of life that they fail to identify with. This is a prevalent discussion amongst women in their 20s or 30s who feel far from ready for the next chapter, whether that's moving out, marriage or having kids. Moreover, this is especially pointed for women who feel pressure to 'settle down' as th

I think we should officially name it New Med Anxiety (NMA!) Let’s be real, the anxiety around starting a new medication can be immense… Will it make me sicker? How many side effects will I get? Should I definitely be trying this one? What if I react to it? Is it worth the risk? How might it affect my mental health? Oof, it’s A LOT. Especially if you’ve had bad experiences in the past. I’ve had new medications and combinations of medications that have landed me in the ED more

Some days with chronic illness feel like hiking a steep hill, other days feel like climbing Everest. Some days life feels somewhat manageable, other days you cannot fathom how to get through the next hour. Some days life seems brighter and hope within reach, other days it feels like your heart is breaking piece by piece. Some days I’m thankful for what I’ve managed to get through and the hard lessons I’ve learnt, other days I resent and grieve it all. Some days try to break y

Living with chronic illness, we are often pressured to “make the best” of everything. Whether this comes from internally or externally, it can be A LOT to take. We are acutely aware that things can always “be worse” and that when a better day comes we must suck the life out of it, so to speak. Yes, everyone - healthy or not - feels the societal pressures to keep doing, creating and working instead of simply being but there is an added layer to it when you’re sick. Our body do

It’s possible that my health may improve one day. I hold on to hope that it can. It’s possible that I may end up with better relationships than all the ones I’ve lost. It’s possible that my ill health will focus me onto a different and greater career path than the one I had originally planned. But the one thing that’s not possible at all is the thing that haunts me most. It’s not possible to get back… time. I can’t get back my 20s… the “greatest years of my life.” This is som

“You either walk inside your story and own it or you stand outside your story and hustle for your worthiness." - Brené Brown Most people don’t understand my story from the outside looking in and it’s taken me a long time to be okay with that. Not everyone is going to get “it.” Judgement is the easier option. It takes time and understanding to put yourself in someone else’s shoes. And for the most part, when you’re chronically ill, people don’t want to do that. It’s easier to